Recently the youth ministers at our church asked me to give my testimony, as a teenage mom, to the youth group.
To many of these kids, they see me & just see some lady at church with a bunch of kids whose life seems “okay.” Little did they know that decisions I made when I was their age have followed me into my adult years & made life “not-so okay” at times.
What do we has parents & churches teach the youth about sex outside of marriage? If you asked a teenage why they shouldn’t have sex what would they say? Some answers I heard this week were:
STD’s/AIDS, pregnancy, the Bible says not too.
Now, what does the world say about all these warnings? What are teens telling themselves to convince them that their parents & churches are wrong?
Practice safe sex = Birth control & condoms, “It won’t happen to me”, “I’m ready/mature enough”, sex = freedom, “We are going to get married eventually anyway”, times have changed . . .
I was the average teenager . . . I went to a private school until I was a sophomore in high school. I was 8th grade class president, I made good grades, I was athletic, on Student Council, & a member of Speech & Debate. I attended church regularly & even helped my mom teach the kindergarten class. I was booked constantly as the neighborhood babysitter. I was truly a good girl. I had a great relationship with my parents. They were very supportive of me & were open about what the Bible says about premarital sex. Never did they ever imagine their daughter would graduate from highschool 4 months pregnant. I knew better, but I also thought it would NEVER happen to me. I even gave speeches in high school on teen pregnancy.
Then I met a boy. I fell “in love” & began to trade my upbringings & everything I knew about why NOT to have premarital sex for all the excuses the highschool halls are full of. I began to sneak around, lie to my parents, & have sex with my boyfriend every chance I got. Spring break my senior year, I discovered I was pregnant. It happened to me!
I didn’t go to our youth group with the same old teen pregnancy scare tactics like they are accustom to. You know, the ones -- “don’t have sex, you could get pregnant, he might dump you the next day, everyone will be talking about it, you’ll have a baby to take care of, you can’t afford it, your parents will be disappointed & mad.” I heard all of those too & they are all true. I did get pregnant, he did eventually leave us, everyone was talking about me, I did have a baby to take care of, it was hard, I was broke, my parents were heart broken. Everyone told me how a baby would ruin MY life – No one ever told me the effect MY choice would have on others – my family, my little sister & brother, my friends, even my relationship with other adults now. But most of all I never ever imagined the pain it would cause for my baby – my son.
No one told me my choice to have sex before I was married would cost me more than I ever knew & would take me further than I ever wanted to go, & hurt more people than I ever imagined. Nothing prepared me for the battles that would arise during my motherhood journey. No one ever told me I’d have to stand in court & fight this person that “loved me” for custody of my baby. I never dreamed I’d have to send him off every-other weekend. Not always know where he’d be or who he’d be with. I wasn’t told that I’d miss every-other Thanksgiving & Christmas, & part of his birthdays. I was not warned about the tear filled eyes on my 9 year old’s face as he begged me to not make him go or the look of disappointment when his dad stood him up on Father’s Day. I never knew. I never knew that I wasn’t just picking someone “I loved” to have sex with, but I was picking the father of my child. Did you know that 40% of children go to bed each night without having a biological father home to tuck them in?
Honestly, in his defense – I don’t think my son’s dad knew either. Despite my personal opinion of him, I don’t think he ever intended to hurt our son the way he has. I don’t think he knew the impact his decision would have either. We were kids wanting to be adults. We made a choice to go against everything that we knew was right.
As I prepared for my speech I came across my journal I kept in high school. Here are 3 inserts:
4/3/99 “Sex has been a big issue with us. BLANK & I have messed around & came very close to having sex, but we haven’t.”
4/8/99 “We had sex! At first we were just fooling around, but one thing led to another & I really wanted to … I’ve heard all the lectures & warnings, but it didn’t matter. I just wanted to be with him.”
A few weeks later “Our relationship is not fun anymore – it is stressful!”
I looked back with the youth group at these three entries . . .
- We were having “issues” – I encouraged these kids to decide NOW!! Not then! Don’t wait until you are “in the moment.” Make the choice before & don’t put yourself in a situation to even “come close”.
- We were “just fooling around” – We were playing with FIRE! Read Proverbs 6:27 to see what the Bible warns about playing with fire. ("Can a man scoop fire into his lap without his clothes being burned?” ) Then look at the Song of Solomon 8:6, “love is as strong as death … it burns like a blazing fire, like a mighty flame.” If you don’t decide now, if you put yourselves in that position, if you play with fire – YOU WILL GET BURNED!
- Sex changes things. We thought by having sex, we were taking our relationship to a more mature, closer relationship. It did not make our relationship better – it only added emotions we were prepared for & brought stress into our lives. Sex is not designed to make teenage relationships better – it is designed to make marriages better. Outside of marriage it leads to shame, lies, & deception. Look at Genesis 2:24 “For this reason a man will leave his father & mother & be united to his wife & they will become one.” The Bible is very clear on God’s design for sex.
I also shed some light from my experience on the worldly excuse we mentioned earlier:
- I was on birth control & I still became pregnant. This is just the worlds way of deceiving us (what would the worlds opinion be if birth control & condoms didn’t exist today?). Many people say times have changed, this part of the Bible doesn’t apply to today’s times. GOD DOES NOT CHANGE. HE IS THE SAME TODAY AS HE WAS YESTERDAY & HE WILL BE THE SAME TOMORROW. GOD’S STANDARDS DO NOT CHANGE! Ephesians 5:6 says, “Let no one deceive you with empty words, for because of such things God’s wrath comes on those who are disobedient.”
- It won’t happen to me! It didn’t happen to me – the first time. In fact, I didn’t become pregnant until almost a year after I started having sex with my boyfriend. Nearly 35% of all young women become pregnant at least once before the age of 20.
- AIDS/STD’s - Becoming pregnant was not the worst thing that could have happened to me. 50% of people with HIV are between 15-24 years old.
As I closed I warned the youth group about their knowledge on premarital sex. I warned them that God would hold them accountable for what they have been taught & cautioned them on the consequences that could follow from disobedience. Proverb 5:21, “For man’s ways are in full view of the Lord, and He examines all his paths.”
Some of the kids in our group may have already had sex, some of the couples listening may already be in a sexually active relationship. I addressed them as well . . . It’s not too late! That is only an excuse. I could have continued to lie to myself & said the same thing. But then I wouldn’t be the person I am today. I wouldn’t have the family I have. I could have ended up with several babies daddies. I didn’t though. I learned my lesson. God is a merciful, loving, forgiving, full of grace GOD! There may be consequences, I can almost promise you there always will be, but it is NEVER too late.
Sex is meant for marriage. It is a lifelong commitment. Having sex outside of marriage will change the course of your life. Sex outside of marriage has a pricetag. Some of us have to pay more than others, sometimes others have to pay for us, but it will always cost more than we ever intended on paying.