This is something that doesn’t come easy for me to admit, but I need help. No, not mental help – They haven’t driven me to the crazy house just yet! And no, I don’t have an addiction either.
I need help with ALL THESE kids!!!
There I said it!
My momma gets so frustrated with me when we are together, because I refuse to let her help. I just get so used to doing things myself that at times I don’t even realize I need help. Accepting help is hard for me. Asking for help is even harder.
I don’t know why it is so difficult for me to admit. Perhaps I feel judged . . . judged for having a large family (6 kids don’t seem like very many compared to REALLY large families with like 18 kids). Everyone seems to have an opinion about our family size – even total strangers at the grocery store & even very close well meaning family members. So, with the judgments from others & my own Do It Myself tendencies H-E-L-P became increasingly difficult for me to accept & ask for.
Well dear friends, I am at a point in life that I can admit & even beg & plead for HELP!! I am now comfortable with who I am & what I do for my family that I don’t have to be the one doing it ALL. And I don’t feel any less of a mother for saying a little help would be nice. I’ve come to the realization that help does not mean that I am inadequate & it is not an admission of guilt either. I am very happy with the size of my family & I can handle the responsibilities that come with it. Help is just nice.
So there ya have it . . . I, Tiffany Scott, need, want, & have sought for help! Seek & ye shall find! Last week was my first week of having hired help. A young new mother that lives very close to me is coming over for a couple hours twice a week to help me. She is not cleaning or schooling or doing the things I just don’t want to do – she is mostly here just to help. Help hold my little Buckaroo so Momma’s Boy can have uninterrupted time to school with me. Help to get that drink the Mustangs are begging for. Help to make sure that one part of the house doesn’t fall apart while I’m focusing on the other. Just simple, much needed, & greatly appreciated help. What a wonderful blessing it is.
